Power Nerding it up.

First off, hope ya like the new layout. I'm really digging it.

I'm feeling like a powernerd in the biggest way lately. I made a promise to myself not to drink much until I'm 21 if at all. I got in trouble for it early in the summer and if that happened again so close to my birthday I would go nuts.

So lately I've been staying in on the weekends and it's not the coolest thing I've ever decided to do, but it is getting my work done. Stayed home tonight (Saturday) Got the house ready for Labor Day BBQ with my parents. Did some homework (Or am still doing it I guess) and did laundry..

I have under 50 dollars in my bank account and nothing left on my credit card!! Holy crap I'm beyond broke I need that Financial aid check to come in! What's kinda annoying about that is that I can't even afford to buy my last book for the semester right now. I'm not waiting tables so my moneys even shorter than before.

Oh yeh, here's the big powernerd part. I'm liking school right now. Being a business major was really to make money after getting my degree, but I'm REALLY liking the material. It's crazy. So I thought English was the only thing I'd like, but I am torn between that and business. Maybe Sam had an idea with declaring two majors?? Even if it is just an associates for now.

-DC

Displacement

When I'm angry at school, I focus big time on work.
When I'm angry at work, I focus big time on school.
I feel like this might put a displacement problem on my plate. Anywho, I'm focusing big time on school right now, thought I'd give you a hint on how I feel about work at this point in time.

-DC

BULLSHIT

Angry that's all. Maybe I'll get over it tomorrow.............

DC

Edu-ma-cation

My courseload this semester:

2 Business classes to work toward my major.
1 English class not only because it's part of my major, but because the classic Literature is apealing to my nerdy writer side.
1 Education class because althought it's not my major, I still haven't ruled it out quite yet.

Kinda pumped to have two of the same teachers I had in the spring. My English teacher seemed pretty happy to see me in the class. I did pretty well in the spring in her class, and she always brought up my papers in class.

-DC

Looking for Change

I'm worried. School starts tomorrow (Technically today, or even, just a few hours.) I get anxious and not really in a good way. I've got three classes this semester, I'm trying to pick up another one, because I desperately want school to be over and want to shorten the experience any way possible. However I'm broke as hell and it's gonna be a stretch to get in a fourth class. And I haven't even paid for books yet................

I'm worried about going to school this semester without having too many people I know there.

Fuck.

Let it out,
Shout about,
A time when,
I couldn't forget,
But never wanted to limit myself,
To what you wanted all along.

A really good friend of mine is leaving for spain... in a few hours. Semester abroad. I'm really happy for her, but I'll miss her. A new chapter she calls it. Let's make this chapter a good one as we all have these time spans in our lives when we can change ourselves for the better or worse, by having certain experiences. Leaving your friends and family behind, diving into school, work or any other project, it tests us and lets us prove to ourself things we wondered all along. You don't want to let these chapters pass you by without making the most of them.

I'm hoping to make this chapter (Roughly now until the end of december) something worthy. I'm looking for change. Change is good.

-DC

I hate August.

I don't know if I can really express how overwhelmed I am with just how shitty this summer has been, and still is.

I'm feeling crappy cuz I dont get to see my niece anymore since her parents broke up. I used to see this kid every day, and I havn't seen her all summer. Not to mention how close I was with her parents. They were two of my best friends and I havn't seen either of them in a long time either.

A friend of mine died two years ago this month, thats got me feeling like shit, and I don't know how to talk to anyone about it with it sounding right.

School's up in the air because I have no money.

I have no money because my car getting broken into last month cost way more than I had expected, and because I'm working towards something at work (This step in the process pays less.)

I want to go to school, but I also dont know if I'd be able to do it if I got promoted at work.

I'm attempting to keep with my writing... attempting.

Work is rough. Two close friends (managers) are gone, and the friends of mine that are there, aren't that easy to work with. Maybe it's just harder to act as some form of authority toward them because they see it as me being an asshole. It's really just me doing my job. I think I used to have friends here... I may be mistaken. There are some really good people who will still back me up, but others are complete crap to work with, and it gets me into the worst mood ever. I get so fed up and just wish I recieved a little bit of respect from some of these assholes. One friend of mine made me rethink ever trying to get a friend a job ever again. I don't really know if we're even friends anymore. I think we just work together.

I got caught underage drinking in the begining of June, and im just now seeing some consequences of it, so close to my birthday no less.

Going through one of those nights where I can't sleep because I can't turn my mind off of some of these things. Thought I'd complain to anyone who feels like listening.
-dc

break.

I'm reallllly having a bad couple of weeks! It's five am and i need to try and get some sleep. I hate philly. I hate this fucking stupid shit that keeps hapenning to me/ because of me/ around me. God damnit i could use a break.